Sunday, July 27, 2008

What are You doing???

"...continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose." - Philippians 2:12b-13 (NIV)

I'm reading a book right now called "Holy Discontent" by Bill Hybels, pastor of Willow Creek Church in Chicagoland. I like reading, I like learning and growing, I like books, and I like Bill Hybels - I have mad respect for him as an incredible leader in Christianity and in the business world.

So every now and then I'll come across a book that just screams out "read me!"; Hybels' "Holy Discontent" is one of those books. After I finish it, I'll spend some time processing and internalizing it and then I'll move on to another books of his that I've been wanting to read for a couple of years now - it's a book called "Too Busy Not To Pray." I want to read that book because: (A) I'm going to be teaching on prayer at the end of next month and (B) because I get so busy that I have a tendency to put serious, lengthy times prayer on the backburner because I'm so busy ...perhaps too busy sometimes.

All of that to say, I am really wondering what God is up to in me and in my future. Every now and then God will speak to me and tell me that He's got big things in store for me, not that I'm going to be big but that He in His grace is going to use me to go great things for His Kingdom, building up His Church and making Him famous!

What exactly will that look like? How exactly is that gonna pan out? What does that mean as I finish up my degree this fall? What does that look like at Del Sol Church and Fire Youth Ministry? How is that going to become reality in the next few years?

"What are You doing, God?" is a question that I'm constantly finding myself asking.

I just want to be open to what He's doing, where the Spirit is leading me, and I want to be obedient to Him, no matter what that means I'll have to risk, no matter what that means I may have to sacrifice. That's part of letting Jesus be my Lord - it's no longer about me. It's not longer about what I want. Now that I'm Christ's, I never have any right to ask what I want, but must always ask what HE wants.

So here I am, reading books, praying like crazy, seeking counsel, asking God - nay, begging God - to show me what the next step is.

What are you doing God?

I'm in.

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